Today on 19.4.2018...

I never knew before that the worries of a mother can stretch as vast as the ocean, until I become one myself. Before, my daily routine consists mainly of work and what-to-eat for lunch and dinner, where to chill on TGIFs. Given my 天塌下来，用被盖-mentality, WORRY doesn't seem to even strike me at any time.

I always believe that things around me happen for a reason and whatever that is placed upon me, it is God's work and it is meant to make me LEARN and become a STRONGER person; for my family, for myself. 

The day WORRY came visiting, was the day I realize there is a little precious one in me. Every step I took, every meal I ate, even my sleeping posture became A BIG DEAL overnight. I worry about baby's growth development; I think those were the time I talked to God most 😆. The same kind of worry repeated when I was carrying my second little precious. And the worries went on to the next level when they are unwell, when they fall, etc..

Walking their childhood journey with them, all by myself, was the toughest yet the most fulfilling periods of my life; especially when they were merely 20-months apart. Many asked me "How did you do it?" - that was a GOOD question! 

Becoming a mother myself has made me re-think about my life. Going back to as far as my childhood time, tertiary journeys, rebellious periods and OL days. Re-visiting the different stages of my life made me realize my strengths and weaknesses. It was like an eye-opening and it felt like I finally began to understand WHO I REALLY AM. And I started to think about WHAT I CAN DO, to improve on myself so that I can help my girls to achieve their brighter journeys. 

Today on 19.4.2018...I would say my biggest worry for the girls is their safety. When Singapore seems to be a safe country (compared to others), it doesn't seems so anymore. There have been cases of e-scooters knocking down on little children and elderly. Just 2 days ago, there were a video that was circulating on social media and whatsapp, about a school girl who got hit by a car while crossing the road - my heart almost stopped! And another one - an elderly man who was walking at a carpark and was hit by a reversing taxi. Paranoid - YES, this is the word now. 

All mishaps could have been avoided - can it? can it not?? It is no more about teaching them the safety rules when crossing the roads. I even have to get them to watch out for scooters or e-scooters or bicycles when we walk our from our lifts, leading to the walkways UNDER OUR VOID DECK! There have been a few accidents AT the zebra crossing near our block. Some of the drivers don't even bother to slow down at zebra crossings - perhaps it is time to install cctv at ALL pedestrian crossings?

I am a driver myself. I understand that when I am taking the wheel, it is my responsibility to ensure the safety of myself, those in my car, and also the pedestrians. 

For drivers: 

IF YOU ARE UNWELL, DON'T DRIVE. 

IF YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD, DON'T DRIVE. 

IF YOU ARE IMPATIENT, DON'T DRIVE. 

IF YOU ARE IN A RUSH, DON'T DRIVE (because you are risking another person's life and you won't know until it happens).

For pedestrians: 

NOTHING IS THAT URGENT THAT WE HAVE TO RISK OUR SAFETY FOR IT.

OUR LIFE IS MOST IMPORTANT IN THIS WHOLE WORLD - TREASURE IT.

🙏